Graduation Decision

GRADUATION IS HERE and i will be spending it at my house. Now just for you readers im not graduating from 12th grade.....8th grade is were Nandi Howard's at. Well today i was in the car telling my mom about graduation when she stopped and said, "Nandi i cannot make your graduation". I felt really sad but not enough to cry. I was mad.... for some odd reason. I couldn't get it out of my mine. I mean the next "real" graduation is not till 12th grade. My mom kept asking me what's wrong (like she didn't no). She tried to bribe me like saying,"You can have a pool party after your graduation". I really didn't want to hear it. I kind of feel like my mom's putting her trip before my graduation. I also feel selfish because my mom should get out every now and then but, not on my graduation! I realized that if my mom doesn't go i don't want to be there with part of my family. I have not broken the news to my mom about the "graduation decision". I'm pretty sure she'll be upset but, my intention is not to hurt her. I think this is the best choice. If she changes her trip...of course I'll go but, I don't want her to change her trip because of me. It's so complicated i want her to be there but i don't. Why couldn't she book her trip another time? Why did the graduation have to be around this time? Those are questions i just cant seem to comprehend. 

"Fashion a breastpiece for making decisions-the work of a skilled craftsmen. Make it like the ephod: of gold, and of blue, purple and scarlet yarn, and of finely tisted linen.

Exodus 28:15

Peace is powerful,

Nandi Howard